#38

Assalamualaikum. Hi.

Today I was bored. I didn't know what to do. All the kittens were doing their own stuffs. I thought of reorganized my books but nah. So I decided to Google all my friends' names whom I used to be so closed with and I found a blog belongs to one of them. It really brings back all the memories we all had during highschool right before each of us went apart for boarding school.

And then I remembered something. Okay so, after PMR I got an offer to go to SBPI Rawang. For some childish reasons, I declined the offer and was hoping to get into sekolah teknik. Turned out, I didn't. I was bumped. So, buat rayuan and got into TIKL for second intake.

The thing is, when I received the offer letter, I had actually 3 days left to register (and of course lah berhenti dari SMKBTHO, ambil surat berhenti sekolah, and beli barang whatnot). It was chaos. The fact that I was sooooooo rushed, I tak sempat say goodbye to my friends who were staying (most of them dah pindah sekolah already) and to my teachers too. Haha and they were like, why I'm not going to school for so long. To be honest, I was too busy settling the documents, the thought to bid farewell didn't come across my mind.

So, thank God la my mother is a school teacher in SMKBTHO. It was her who told everyone else I moved to other school. So sorry guys.

It's been 5 years since I left school and now I'm doing my degree. Naik sem nanti dah 3rd year blerghjkdsfhlsihisfj how time flies. Ayah once said, "Qilah kalau nak kahwin, Ayah nikahkan je." Lol not feeling it. I have so many personal goals I need to achieve before settling down. And believe me, I will. InsyaAllah.

:)

#37

Assalamualaikum.

Hi. So, I woke up today with a heavy heart. I was crying and feeling lost. Not that something happened. It's just one of those days where you overthinking of something like someone's death - your parents' death to be precised.

What if one of them no longer lived? Or worse, Allah took both of them too soon and at the same time. Frankly speaking, I freaking don't know what to do. My siblings are all over the place. The eldest, my brother, is currently not in the country, and my little sister is at the South of Peninsula. Just the youngest stays with the parents. Most of my really closed relatives live in Kedah and Melaka. Just a few whom I rarely speak to live nearby (Putrajaya, Balakong, Klang).

Since my brother is not here, I'm basically taking over my brother's place by being the eldest right now. And the thought of that makes my whole body shiver. Dude, I seriously will not know what I'll be doing if anything unfortunate happens to my family.

Kita minta, Allah panjangkanlah jodoh orang tua kita. I'm not ready for any major loss. Ameen.