#64

Assalamualaikum.

Hello, it's been a while is it? Anyway, I'm on my mid semester break right now. I just got home a few days back. I just read on Twitter something about closure. You know, when you need justification of anything that happened in your life.

Closure. I was once a big fan of wanting to know why certain things happened to me in certain ways. Mostly when bad things happened, for example, a break-up. You are so driven to find out what was your or your partner's mistakes, why someone choose to do what they did, why, why, why and why. Steve Harvey, an African-American guy who used to show up on Oprah's Show very often and now he has his own talk show (mostly to talk about relationship), has discussed this. Women tend to have this eagerness to find out about every thing. While men just let it go; or simply just don't care.

Like I said, when I was in a relationship, I was that kind of girlfriend who needs closure. Lol. It was exhausting. Exhausting because when you don't have the answer you want, you can't rest, you can't find peace. I'm not talking about relationship here. I'm talking about what effect does it has on you when you finally have that sense of resolution or a conclusion. Is it good? Boy oh boy, was I wrong. Believe me when I said most of the time, you don't need it. Yes, we need reasons but sometimes you gotta know when not to ask for (or give) an explanation. For an instance, when a couple decides to end things with each other and the boy said he doesn't love the girl anymore. You don't need to ask why he doesn't have the love no more. This is where the term 'move on' comes in. The same applies when you got fired or somethin' (haha).

You just gotta let things go. If you don't, it's gonna consume you and that's why it is so tiring. The fatigue will kill you. Everyone will get annoyed of you and it pushes people away. After that, you will get lonely and you don't want that. Or do you? Usually the explanation lies within yourself. Make peace with it and then boom, you'll be fine. Alah, macam kita baru lepas keluar dewan exam and tak boleh jawab. Pasaipa? Pasai hg bodoh. Bodoh pasaipa? Tu hg tau sendiri la. Pasai tak belajaq, main-main, solat pun lengah-lengah (I'm talking about myself. Haha I'm so funny).

I'm going through something right now with this guy. I mean, we kinda have on-and-off communication till today. I don't know what he wants and neither do I. So, I'll just go with the flow and I don't wanna know why he (or we) acted that way. Because sometimes the truth hurts more than a knife. See, a closure is not everything in your life, dear.

Everything happens for a reason. Eventually the sense will come back to you and that's all you need to know.