#52

Assalamualaikum. Hello.

One question. Why do we lie? I get lied to very often and it's so tiring you can't even imagine. The fact that some people lied to my face over and over again makes me sick. It's either that person is so goddamn fool or I'm stupid enough to not see one's true colour. Whatever it is, I no longer have interest dealing with that kind of people. You want to make yourself happy? Go ahead. You feel miserable? That's life, man.

You see, to lie, you jeopardize your relationship with others. Being lied to is the worse. It's like a stab in the back with a sword. Or a keris la I might say. Keris hurts more because of the wavy shape (and a deadly weapon). Believe me, I've been there. Twice. I feel used. To let go without any hatred is not easy. Not at all, sir. But I intend to make things right for myself and for my future being. At the moment, I don't care for the people who never stood up for me. They don't deserve my fucking time. Right now, it seems better that way.

Ya Allah, jauhkanlah aku daripada orang-orang yang kuat menipu ni. Don't you get tired of lying? You're not a conman like Frank Abagnale, Jr or Jordan Belfort that make money while doing that. I mean, not that being a fraud is less bad than a liar, but you see, they got caught, stayed in jail, got out of the jail and then made things better with themselves and use their talents for something good.

Well, on second thought, you're not a good liar if you get caught. Haha. Thinking about this makes me so mad because YOU DON'T HAVE TO LIE IF YOU CAN'T LIE, YOU FOOL.

Sorry about that. I guess I'm so stressed thinking that people can actually get away with that without feeling guilty. Mungkin Allah dah tarik perasaan bersalah tu and idk why and I don't think I will ever know. Also, I'm glad that I have less baggage on my shoulders now.

To my readers, you may or may not understand what I've been babbling about, don't worry. You don't need to. This is one the ways to express myself and to pour things out from my mind.

All is well.